Idols = humans too

Recently I have been interested in a boy Korean boy band: Super Junior and was interested in another Japanese boy band: NEWS both being idols groups. The thing is I never had such interest in that area before, sure I do love and enjoy listening to music but had never care about who sang them the song was most important. Initially I was puzzled and confused however as time goes on and when i chat with my friends I realize that such acts are normal, this led to another point. Due to the interest I would "research" about them, watching clips of them performing especially "live", participation in talk shows/ variety shows and concerts. When viewing them I wondered to myself how lucky were those people who were able to be there to watch them perform. This made me felt a bit sick or rather disappointed in myself This is because one of my principles is that they are human too there is no need to fantasize about them to that point.

This makes me wonder how could they mere humans possess such ability and effect on another human? why would we have that feeling? Is it because we admire their lifestyle? or something else which I have not figured out? When I am stress or down just listening to their voice/music or watching their performance clips makes me energize and the sense of being safe in that fan world. Some fans of idols mention that idols existence gave them hope to live and continue or that their music evoke some feeling either happiness or understanding. This make me wonder WHY??? they the idols seems to be some figure portrayed to be a model someone they can look up too. Aren't they just idols? did they do some significant work to have such admiration? This brings to another point in every industry or field there are their own difficult so people from another field should not comment about other field's easiest since they have not experience it themselves right? In addition everyone's thoughts differ due to their environment, they were they were bought up to believe and what influence them, therefore we also cannot make unfair judgement and remark to another individual point we can only state our view and just let their make their choice <-- this is what I strongly believe in. There are anti-fans that defame the idols that they dislike and I am actually surprise that they the idols are hurt so much that they actually commit suicide. I have never been in their position before to be defame over the net by mass - cyber bullying, so I cannot relate much to them but I have my fair share of being bullied or defame (people talking bad about me and such) so I do understand how they feel but taking one's own life takes a lot of courage and disappointments in life.

This shows that those who are admired and love by many may also suffer from those antis we are all human we love and hate people that's how simple life is, you are either being love or hate <-- the world is just so cruel right? why do people hate one another? let me tell you what I think: jealous that they couldn't have it, different point of views = disagreement in conclusion as long as the things does not suit your way you will end up hating them... humans are so predictable...

Being in another world

Currently mugging for final year exams so in order to take breaks I would watch some music videos, technically videos of my fav boyband: Super Junior. Everything I watch these video clips, I would always get the feeling that I am currently in another world, a peaceful world, a world without worries/stress, just a enjoyable and warmer world compared to the current one I am living in. This world I have long admitted is a sad world, I do have such negative thoughts about the current world. But one might state what is sad without happiness. I have my share of happiness but I guess it was not enough to change my view of the world. I believe no matter how happy I am at one point, I would definitely be upset/disappointed/feeling down in another way. So what quantifies a happy or sad world? it is subjective -> up to the individual.

Another thing about this world is reality, ah reality one thing I detest the most, reality bring on sadness. Don't one feel enjoyable and happiness during parties, vacation etc, but once those end reality hits and they have to go back to their "boring, stressful, many responsibility lives"? Well I guess majority of people felt that way. As mention earlier when I was watching those clips, I feel safe and in a happier mood, but after the clip end I felt back to the reality to mug for exams

Why do we study so hard for? Yes for a better future! what is considered a better future? Better future for me is doing the job I want, unfortunately for me the job requires paper - certificate. Not that I am against the part that knowledge is crucial for doing the job since if the worker is not knowledgeable regarding the work to be done, serious consequence might happen. But the process is what I felt painfully. I have to slough so hard for it everything, just call me whiny but I just felt very sian... working hard but might not obtain the expected result.

Sometimes even if I put much effort onto it I do not get the desired result hence I do have thoughts of why bother doing it in the first place because in the end it is not what I expected... well try because mircale might happen OR your wish may come true OR your effort will be paid off <-- how much of that will happen in a person lives time? I certainly do believe that as much as effort is involved, luck (or whatever other's call it: some forces) will play its part as well. This is the unexpected variable to the equation of success? effort + luck = success in the things you do! I guess that's part of life...

Now back to mugging to obtain a brighter future and hope that lady luck is smiling at me ^^