Being in another world

Currently mugging for final year exams so in order to take breaks I would watch some music videos, technically videos of my fav boyband: Super Junior. Everything I watch these video clips, I would always get the feeling that I am currently in another world, a peaceful world, a world without worries/stress, just a enjoyable and warmer world compared to the current one I am living in. This world I have long admitted is a sad world, I do have such negative thoughts about the current world. But one might state what is sad without happiness. I have my share of happiness but I guess it was not enough to change my view of the world. I believe no matter how happy I am at one point, I would definitely be upset/disappointed/feeling down in another way. So what quantifies a happy or sad world? it is subjective -> up to the individual.

Another thing about this world is reality, ah reality one thing I detest the most, reality bring on sadness. Don't one feel enjoyable and happiness during parties, vacation etc, but once those end reality hits and they have to go back to their "boring, stressful, many responsibility lives"? Well I guess majority of people felt that way. As mention earlier when I was watching those clips, I feel safe and in a happier mood, but after the clip end I felt back to the reality to mug for exams

Why do we study so hard for? Yes for a better future! what is considered a better future? Better future for me is doing the job I want, unfortunately for me the job requires paper - certificate. Not that I am against the part that knowledge is crucial for doing the job since if the worker is not knowledgeable regarding the work to be done, serious consequence might happen. But the process is what I felt painfully. I have to slough so hard for it everything, just call me whiny but I just felt very sian... working hard but might not obtain the expected result.

Sometimes even if I put much effort onto it I do not get the desired result hence I do have thoughts of why bother doing it in the first place because in the end it is not what I expected... well try because mircale might happen OR your wish may come true OR your effort will be paid off <-- how much of that will happen in a person lives time? I certainly do believe that as much as effort is involved, luck (or whatever other's call it: some forces) will play its part as well. This is the unexpected variable to the equation of success? effort + luck = success in the things you do! I guess that's part of life...

Now back to mugging to obtain a brighter future and hope that lady luck is smiling at me ^^